Inner Ground

I'm in pain

a lot of it

and I can't seem to understand

or get around it or go through it.

I see Gabriella Hoppe  my teacher putting her hand on her shoulder, just to show that I can just

Put it there. Softly, warmly, in a supportive, gentle, accepting way

And yet I

Still push myself into it, fight it

Try and take it away

And what's with my lower back?Haven't heard from it since I was going through a crisis in 96'

When my beloved Jessie, my dog, died and we didn't have our own space to live in and there were problems getting pregnant.

Suddenly my back has come back! To tell me what?

All the intersections in my body are screaming...something, my knees, particularly the right

Can I have a pain-less day?

And tired , no energy...aagh!

And yesterday I observed and discovered suddenly the way I am

As one coach put it , circular- (and that's ok)

It was such a different day!

Got up

Meditated

Wrote in my notebook

Typed a post on my blog

Cleaned the house

Shopped

Had a last glance at my book on Greek Gold that I gave to my friend

Back home, rested

Received the kids

Cooked

Read the chapter on Inner Ground of Lifestreams by David Boadella , founder of the pschosomatic therapy known as Biosynthesis I am studying

Helped the kids with their bikes to go riding on the carless streets in Yom Kippur

Watched Elizabeth Gilbert on TED

Watched an amazing film called "Racing Daylight" from the Spiritual Circle Cinema

And a short doc on a lady called Jenny Funkmeyer

Got inspired and went to work on my art!

Creating this:

 Inner Ground

And in closing the day, wrote three things I am grateful for:
My kids my loves
Being given a second and third chance
Cornflakes, I just love them!

So why the low energy today? Maybe I can just accept it instead of fighting it?
Maybe because it started so differently, looking outward instead of inward?
Or simply because it was a difficult night?

Peace...can someone bring it on?